American Psycho definitely deserves its R rating.

There seem to be a lot of people say conformity is a comfort for most people. That its kind of a drug or the easy way out. Patrick from this movie seems to use this as a tool to bait people into his traps and yet can't escape it to relieve himself from his pain of this world. Its like a double edged sword for him.

There does seem to be an ease for most people that do conform. The more social lubricant you apply, the easier it is to get things. I wonder if its just because people don't like to think about the hard questions, or think at all. But you can't tell what people are thinking (at least I can't).

It also seems impossible for me to find someone to talk to on this level, that's mostly why I'm writing these blogs (I don't know if anyone will read them, or care to), and even if I do, I have a hard time with verbal communication. I have a bad short term memory and along with Asperger's, I also believe I have CAPD (which generally accompanies it).

Most people I try to talk to I don't feel would be interested in it anyway. It seems like more people are selfish then selfless. I am to sometimes (maybe more then I think?) and I avoid spilling stuff out to people because I don't want to seem conceited or egotistical. I feel like I just think a lot about these things, and I guess if others don't like to, they probably wouldn't want to discuss it either. So I'm stuck either way. :/

Around the last 20 minutes of the movie, though, I was expecting a mind-freak. That the whole movie of killing was just in his mind (where did he get that gun anyway?).

It is what it is, I guess.